7/17/08

Reasons...

Sometimes I bitch about my life and the things wrong with it. Sometimes I hate thing about my life. Somtimes I love things about my life. I'm very hot & cold. Call it crazy, whacky, or call it pisces. Whatever you call it, it's who I am. I can turn on and off in a matter of seconds. Maybe I should be medicated.

In recent weeks I've found that I've lost a lot of the steam I had going in Chicago. (I know people are probably sick of me bitching about Chicago & not being there anymore. But I don't care) When I was there I felt so alive. I felt so ready to tackle the world. Now I just feel like I'm ready to sleep. Maybe it's Florida & the steamy weather. Maybe it's just me being a pussy. In Chicago, it was cold and anyone who knows me knows I LOVE cold weather. I love being cold. It makes me feel alive. Plus, the hustle & bustle of the city made me feel like I was part of something...it was probably all in my head. But when you've only seen places like that on TV--I mean, I've been to cities before, but I've never lived the city. It was Probably just the thrill of a new place. But, sometimes I have to remind myself of other reasons to have a good day. Other reasons to take care of myself. Other reasons that the day is not so bad.


So I thought I'd share with you my reasons...


(In no particular order)


This is my niece Hailey. She reminds me not to take life so seriously.


This is my brother Dalton. A reminder that I am getting old, but that if no one else in the world does, or if I feel like no one does,

someone loves me.


Jacob reminds me to slow down and look at the Fountain.


This is my nephew Evan. Isn't he beautiufl?

My niece Chelsea. Look at those cheeks. How can you not love that?

And finally, my nephew Shane. Because in his eyes, I'll always be "Pella."

Does this mean I'm going to stop bitching about things? No probably not. It just means that I'll think twice sometims and try to slow down and enjoy what's good about it.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Chicago brings out the energy in people because the city has so much energy. Call it the buildings or the weather, I'm not sure. Perhaps it is the hustle and bustle. I find that living here if I'm lazy one day it's ok cause I most likely walked 45 minutes the day before. I don't know what it is, but there is just something about this place. I visit Florida and I can't wait to come "home" because this has become home for me. I miss my family terribly. However, it's just the place that does it. Florida is hot. So you can come visit this Winter.. I'd say February is a good time.. coldest month of the year.

Anonymous said...

It's hard not to smile when you think about all those youngins. They are all very unique and very special.
-Na